This website provides a space for me to develop and share a collection of selected writings and illustrations relating to spiritual experiences I encountered from late 2016 through to October 2018, and to a lesser degree into 2019. There are approximately 50 images and associated descriptions I wish to complete and upload by June 2020. 

My experiences appeared to be associated with a form of spiritual training I began 25 years ago, called the latihan kejiwaan of Subud. Latihan kejiwaan is an Indonesian phrase that translates to spiritual exercise or training of the soul, while Subud is the name of the organisation that facilitates its members’ development and growth.

While traditionally this training is conducted in small groups at designated times, there is also the potential for spontaneous inner receiving and training to occur. When I use word receiving, I mean intuitive movements that may arise while in a spirit of relaxation and surrender. In normal training these movements are often physical e.g. walking, singing and dancing. Yet, during my soul journeys the receiving was much more subtle i.e. while lying down, somehow my consciousness was spontaneously guided into vast realms, that appeared to lie within my inner being.

The further ‘within’ I travelled, the more connected I was to the whole of the universe. My experience of inner soul journeys and spiritual visions occurred mostly during the night and persisted for approximately 2 years. During this time, I witnessed and experienced a procession of extra-ordinary events. While bewildering and confronting at times, slowly I accepted the validity of these experiences and identified a number of recurring themes, including three over-lapping yet distinct phases of spiritual insight:

2016: Shamanic: Earth, Moon, Sky: Spiritual experiences revealing the nature of base level forces, demons and earth spirits associated with various religious truths.

2017: Abrahamic: Planet, Sol, Galaxy: Soul Journeys into the nature of the underworld, planetary forces and the lower house of the Kingdom of Heaven.

2018: New-Age: Gaia, Universe, Cosmos: Soul Journeys into the nature of creation, re-incarnation, karma, technology, and upper heavenly abodes.

For those unfamiliar to Subud, I should clarify that the nature of the latihan or spiritual exercise is unique to each member and tends to be undramatic. The development of an individual’s latihan is a life-long journey and not all who practice it have ‘spiritual experiences’ as described on this website. As in everyday life, we receive what we need in order to heal and grow as a human being.

In my case, I suspect 25 years of wanting to know the truth about where we come from and go to after death, combined with scepticism and judgement towards religious teachings, led to me being bombarded with vasts amounts of ‘evidence’ supporting various religious and new age thought. I think the universe has a healthy sense of humour.

I would also like to clarify that, despite the extra-ordinary nature of these mystical experiences, Subud members such as myself usually live very ordinary lives. E.g. While being taken on these grand adventures in the evenings, my ‘day job’ has included working as a primary school teacher, finishing a Masters of Education and keeping busy as a stay at home dad and house husband.

Why share these experiences?

Besides the amazing nature of the journeys in of themselves, there are a number of reasons why I’m inspired to share these experiences with you:

Personally: it allows me to piece together a very complex collage of events into a cohesive whole, hopefully giving myself and others a greater understanding of our spirituality.

Organisationally: it provides fellow Subud associates with a complimentary perspective to our founder’s own spiritual journey regarding the potential and purpose of the Latihan.

Socially: It provides people with a way to affirm, contextualise, and integrate the wisdom received in various religious scriptures with new-age thinking and philosophy.

I’ve noticed within myself and my wider community, there is a tendency to form schisms between scientific, religious, conservative and new-age thinking. I believe these splits cause pain and dysfunction to our individual humanity and society as a whole. I hope the experiences shared on this website may help bridge some of these gaps. 

Living Subud

While I’ve wanted to be a transparent as possible regarding my inner soul journeys, some of my spiritual experiences, especially during the first shamanic phase of this revelation felt too personal for the general public. 

Yet, because these experiences provide insight into the nature of the latihan of Subud, I have created a page for Subud members, Living Subud, to post related articles on more complex training and organisation issues. 

If you are a Subud member who is interested in reading about my more personal thoughts and  experiences regarding the latihan kejiwaan, please feel free to contact me, and I’ll send you a password to access these pages.

Thank you for visiting, and I wish you all the best.